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It happened again.  A PG 13 movie with the g.d. word.  

I am having a hard time finding clothes lately.
 
Everything is low cut, scoop neck, cap sleeves and just plain ugly. I am almost a plus size and not sure why all the clothes my size are so darn ugly. It is so frustrating that nothing fits or flatters you. The patterns are garish, the fabric is cheap and very thin usually and the fit is terrible. I am just looking for some classic pieces that will last a few seasons, but they are really hard to come by. So I came home with money in my pocket instead of some new spring things. Not a bad deal really. I didn't really "need" anything.
 
It is okay for me to come out of a store empty handed, but today my heart felt empty too. I walk around alone amongst all the couples, my husband rarely goes anywhere with me. I don't let it stop me from doing anything, but sometimes the devil sure uses it to make me feel lonely. I am glad that I am onto him and his tricks, but every once in a while it gets to me.
 
I am so grateful to God for saving me because without Him I would have no hope, there is a lot of comfort in knowing that this world is not all there is.

I found some empty liquor bottles buried in the trash 2 weeks ago. My heart raced and I felt so afraid but no matter how hard I try I can't deny the fact that my husband is an alcoholic any longer.
There I said it. I am not even sure why I feel a sense of shame about it, but I do.
 
The week went by and I didn't mention the empty bottles. Our trash pick up is Monday, so the following week I dug through the trash again after he left for work and pulled out more empty bottles. This time I lined them up on the laundry room counter and took a picture. Proof? Not really sure why, but I now have 3 pictures of liquor bottles in various places in my laundry room so I can prove they were different times. But who am I ever going to show them to, and why do I think I need proof? I am not going to leave him over this, I believe that God will bring me through this, and thankfully he is not abusive. Well not physically, but he sure can get mean and until I found the bottles I could not figure out why he could be so mean at times, when he is basically a really sweet guy.
 Well... a selfish, deceitful, antisocial, non motivated really sweet guy who apparently spends a lot of money on drinking that I didn't even know about.
 
Although there was that one time that I called 911 and hid in some bushes outside because he was so roaring drunk and I afraid he would hit me. (Wow that sounds really bad when you actually type it out!)
 
And that phone call at 4 am from the police station to come bail him out for drunk driving. He actually said he was not drunk driving because his car broke down on the side of the road and the police pulled over to help and ended up arresting him. BUT technically he wasn't driving, right? To this day he won't admit it. I did not go pick him up, I left him there and he had to call his sister. No way was I bailing him out when I had been telling him to not drink and drive for years. I lost a lot of respect for him when that happened, and still haven't gotten it all back. But it is funny because that was an answer to prayer, I prayed that God would stop him from drinking and driving so no one would get killed, and after the DUI he did stop.
 
Then the court ordered AA meetings he would go to every Sunday, never failing to pick up beer on the way home.
 
But it was always "just beer", 90% water(yes he says that), just a beverage and I can quit anytime, honey. Somehow the hard stuff kicks it up a notch and makes it a lot scarier than "just beer".
 
 
I am trying so hard to trust God through this and to do the right thing but right now I don't know what the right thing is.

I feel sort of bad for President Obama. I certainly would not want to be in his position, but if I remember right, he did promise some things that I think in reality he is not going to be able to deliver on. The "stimulus" plan is becoming a joke really, did they really think the american people were going to fall for that? I may be oversimplifying things but why can't they just divvy up the billion, no trillions of dollars and cut us each a 10-20-30 thousand dollar check. That sure would stimulate the economy! Are they afraid we would all save the money? I know I would save some AND spend some, how about you?
 
Who exactly is in charge of appointing cabinet members? They certainly have not done their homework. If the president wants to keep washington insiders on the inside he will just be getting more of the same, corrupted unethical politicians who are only interested in personal gain. Wait, I seem to remember that President Obama wanted "change", and not the politics as usual stuff. Is there really not one person outside of washington qualified to serve in a cabinet position? Think outside the box Mr. President, please.
 
And is it just me, or are the Obama disciples being very, very quiet these days?
 
I encourage anyone that is a Christian on here to pray for President Obama. I pray that he would come to know Christ and lead this country in an honorable way. It really is our only hope.

You might be interested in the following story from OneNewsNow.com:
What are they buying?

The Obama administration and Congress are now in a position to do what FDR did during the Great Depression -- use a crisis of the times to create new institutions that will last for generations.

 Citigroup’s New French Jet!

Why is there no accountability here?  This is so very wrong.

 

 

 

 

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